Wishful Thinking

2012-02-14T18:46:00.002+08:00

You don't need me. But I do. These three words have two meanings but only mean one thing to you.

2012-02-13T18:00:00.004+08:00

I think I can explain being in love now. Being in love is... being anxious all the time. Wanting to please, worrying that she will see me as I really am. But wanting to be known. That is, you're naked, moaning in the dark, no dignity at all. I wanted her to see me and to love me even though she knew everything I really am, and I knew her. Now, she's gone and my knowledge is incomplete. This situation never works out well for the men.

2012-02-12T19:21:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't.. I really shouldn't have... ~sigh~ I know I shouldn't but I still want it anyway..

2012-02-11T15:53:00.000+08:00

I feel so guilty. Why did it happen? I mean, I know why. Just, how? One thing really did lead to another. Next thing I know, it felt so good yet so guilty. At that time, I know I shouldn't but I wanted more. Things are just so complicated and I don't want to add to the burden. ~sigh~

2012-02-10T20:01:00.001+08:00

Lets not ruin the moment with words. :)

2012-02-08T19:36:00.000+08:00

She was right, I never got over that person.. Even others know they were all about her. I guess its time to stop.

2012-02-07T22:49:00.001+08:00

The way things are, isn't helping at all. Why is it a curse that we will never appreciate anything, anyone until its/they're gone? It is just so sad that we will never be able to learn from our mistakes. ~sigh~ I guess we'll never be able to be together. If only the circumstances were different, I think we would have made it through. Just maybe. I can't stop thinking about it. The way sunlight look so good on you, with that perfect glow shining off your face. I can't believe I finally found you but things aren't the way it is suppose to be. If I knew then, things would be so different now. Love comes once in awhile, knocks on your door, throw you a smile, takes every breath, speaks through your souls, sings through your heart only to know you'll never be able to feel the same way again.

2012-02-06T00:59:00.001+08:00

I think I remember reading something on Wen peng's tumblr that says, You're mentally matured when you're able to keep calm while someone is mad at you for a reason not known to you. Damn, I miss how understanding he could be.

Broken pieces

2012-02-04T23:29:00.001+08:00

~sigh~

But just so you know, it still is for today.

Oh,

Just so you could see how it still hurts.

And,

So please forgive all the wrongs that I've done and keep me in your memory. Leave nothing but good memories we have shared together.

2012-02-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

Wish you were here...

Wanting More

2012-02-03T05:27:00.000+08:00

They say that when it is just once, it might just be them. But if it happens more than two hands can count, you might want to ask yourself why. ~sigh~ I already know I do not deserve it but I still want it anyway. Don't tell me things I already know, because you're just rubbing salt onto my wound as if it doesn't hurt. Why does it hurt this bad? Remember you caught me staring at you earlier today? Know why? Because I never thought that after two years since then, I can still find myself finding out new things about you. Like how red you go when it is hot outside or the wrinkle on your nose when you're being playful.

2012-02-01T04:31:00.002+08:00

2012-02-01T04:03:00.000+08:00

How could we spend years with someone, loving them and then go on back being strangers? How could it be possible that two people who was in a relationship before go on being strangers again after so much that happened between them? Was everything nothing and nothing everything now? I don't know. Why can't we ever think of the happier times and be grateful it ever happened instead of just saying how it was all so wrong. Mistakes or not, every relationship has its moments. They were memories we could cherish if we try. Don't any of you miss the times you could open up with that certain someone and find it hard to keep it all inside while holding them in your arms? Even miss them while they are at your side? Its the sad truth I finally am awake to. I'm sorry.

2012-01-22T03:12:00.004+08:00

What hurts the most was being so close to you, with so many things to say but still I never told you any of it. After everything that happened and you still left. I just don't know whether I can do this anymore. It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends because it brings back too much memories. Its getting harder everyday living with this regret. If I could do it over again, these words would never go unspoken.

Goals

2012-01-19T03:20:00.001+08:00

Remembered what Darmain told me two years ago about goals. So here goes;

Help is out there
Friends are there for a reason
Long term & short term goals.

Changes to be made would definitely be the responsibilities but goals are another story.

My long term goal would be to own an airfield maybe somewhere in Alberta. I don't care how and my short term goal would be to get out of their clutches. I know this goals aren't really impressive but I do want to. It is a dream. So starting this year, I will try my best to fulfill as many as I can. Another would be to watch out more for micro expressions, to connect more.

Something to add on would be about leaders. A leader is someone who is look upon to as a guide, a shepherd and as an example. A leader should lead with good examples and never through harsh words. No leader would ever need to resort to violence and harsh crude words in order to get things done. It is the way a leader carries themselves around that makes them special and also respected. If you are going to tell me, "I'll slap you, then you know!", I can always tell you to go ahead and lay your hand on me and you'll never be able to see Starbucks or any work place ever again. I can sue Starbucks, I can sue you and I'll make sure you'll think before you open your mouth. A leader is he who cares for those he leads.

Captured

2012-01-15T02:45:00.000+08:00

I'll never forget you.
Every day, every night
You're all I think about.

You'll always be in here to remind me

everything I've lost

I'm still wishing I gave you this before you left.

So, having you in here will just have to suffice.

Good Old Times

2012-01-13T06:32:00.001+08:00

Its only 6 something right now in the morning and I am happy right now...

What can I say? Dubstep made my day... All those days of being crazy the bros back then is something I really miss doing. Maybe I should go back on the 18th to visit the Old Boys. Lets see whether things work out.

Magical words

2012-01-12T01:54:00.000+08:00

Sometimes out of nowhere, wonderful things can happen to anyone. And it can simple words like,

I love you.

2012-01-11T06:05:00.002+08:00

I did say I can never trust you again. Not with this, never again... You left me all alone thinking what I did wrong and I know that night I said a lot of hurtful things to you as I was partially drunk but don't forget what you told me the next couple of days. Don't you dare forget it. And you really think I don't know? Don't put up another act for me with him. Stop telling yourself that it was all okay for me. But yeah, I still wish I had the right words then. Because until now, I still can't tell you how much I've felt for you even with the selfish person who I am. It will be almost a year since we left things at it is. On another matter, I've said nothing but well words about you and I still do not understand your frustrations at me. No joke... Never mind. We men are just clueless about almost everything.

A Hug

2012-01-10T20:02:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, its nice to get an unexpected hug for no other reason than just because you're loved. So while you're reading this, think of these words as hugs for you from me.

Love you,

2012-01-09T00:55:00.002+08:00

Will you get over it already? Not everything I say is about you. I'm just inspired to write what I want, what I feel and what I love. It does not mean I go everyday thinking only about you. Well, at least I know that it was what I said when I was irrational... But I really don't give a shit now after what you did. I tried and lost it. So I don't care about it no more. I can say this though, you'll never understand loving someone because loving someone is about loving their imperfections AND their perfections. If only I said the right words. However, not all words come easily. Words like I'm sorry. Forgive me.

With time, in time

2012-01-07T11:56:00.000+08:00

Every time I close my eyes to go to sleep I pick out my favorite memory of us.

Of you.

I wish things were different.

I wish it was all dream.

Nothing seems to be the same again.

I'm still sitting here wishing I could hold your hand.

But the truth remains that you're gone from my world.

I don't know how much longer can I go on speaking true words to an unknown audience.

I don't know how much longer can I go on putting a true face on a stage full of deception and lies.

I don’t know how much longer I can bear to look you in the eyes without reaching out to touch your lips; hug you without holding onto you for a little while longer.

Tell me, how long more am I going to go on hurting like this with you not knowing how much it tears me up every time I hear your voice?

All torn, all tattered, all broken but still paying the price for falling in love with you.

A gift

2011-12-30T21:18:00.001+08:00

The past and future makes no difference. Because the present with you is truly a gift.

Fearful Resentments

2011-12-26T05:08:00.000+08:00

I miss you like crazy that even words just won't do the justice describing these feelings. I'm up at four in the morning thinking about you. Sometimes, at four in the evening I think about what went wrong. You are right, I am that selfish. Its all just my self deception thinking I am that of a nice person. I am truly an evil person. I am as judgmental of everyone. I just don't see what is on me. I know you think that saying sorry won't be able to cover up all the hurt I've caused in the past. But sometimes, its just all I have left to say. Its all I can say. Because it too, hurts to know I've hurt you. Of all people I've hurt, you... I have said in eloquent share of sorry in the past and I'll just be plain honest to you right now, I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart.

With a heavy heart.

Daryl

2011-12-22T02:10:00.000+08:00

it may not always be so; and i say
that if your lips,which i have loved,should touch
another's,and your dear strong fingers clutch
his heart,as mine in time not far away;
if on another's face your sweet hair lay
in such a silence as i know,or such
great writhing words as,uttering overmuch,
stand helplessly before the spirit at bay;

if this should be,i say if this should be-
you of my heart, send me a little word;
that i may go unto him, and take his hands,
saying, Accept all happiness from me.
Then shall i turn my face, and hear one bird
sing terribly afar in the lost lands.

E.E. Cummings.

2011-12-21T02:26:00.003+08:00

Day by day

Night by night

Kiss by kiss

Touch by touch

Step by step

I fall in love

A love so incomprehensible

So vivid

So unique

So wild, that not even the reign of God could control

A passion so deep

A need so necessary

A want so strong

The universe would not handle

I love you today

I’ll love you tomorrow

I’ll love you forever

- Julio Patino -

2011-12-21T02:18:00.000+08:00

Broke this fragile thing and I can't pick up the pieces

There is just no way to put them back together

I've spoken all the words that I know

But I just can't find a reason.

I feel so washed up and ready to give up

I just stand holding on for this long

I just can't get up without you

There is just no one like you

My mistakes have let you down

I go on so dishonest about everything

Maybe that is just what I deserve after all I've done

Just don't make me think of him
The way he touches your fragile skin

There is just no one who gets me like you do

That is because you can see right through me

You just get me like I've never been gotten before...

2011-12-20T07:40:00.001+08:00

Should I forget about everything?

I've done what has needed to be done.

I cannot go on this way.

I'm tired.

What else more is there?

I'll never be him.

I wish there was a way.

I still love you like I did.

I could forgive almost anything in the world.

I could understand almost anything in the world for you.

But this, I don't know.

Its not the first time you hid something from me.

What about the first time?

When you told me he touched you,

you hid him away from me.

What would you think I would feel?

Why are you protecting him?

It took me sometime getting over that.

How could you?

Don't....

Don't give me the fact he thought we were over.

You told me, you'll never cheat on me.

What about now?

I've accepted every flaw in you,

Because once you've held my hand,

the past is till then,

Nothing else matters.

I know you've been here.

and I think you know how much I love her.

I will still carry on smiling even though its hurting so much

to know

Sometimes

2011-12-07T20:55:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I feel uneasy about your change of heart.

But you smile to me & said it will never happen

Slowly & surely, I am softly swept away.

Erased from your memory

Sometimes, I smile just looking at you many times each day.

I have told you a hundred times,"You're the love of my life,"

But I know I'll never be the one walking you down that aisle

For I know I'll never be The Right One, only The Right Now

Sometimes, it is because of you I'm breathless

Because you're every breath I take.
All those moonlight kisses,

are nothing more than a shadow of the past now.

Sometimes, it will hurt just to know the inevitable truth.

Forever and more, I'll hold you close to my heart.

Hoping you will always be my eternal love.

Until you blow this candle out.

2011-11-28T05:28:00.001+08:00

I can't believe you can be this childish.

Never thought you would be play this kind of game.

Its fine. I'm not going to retaliate.

No wonder you two could get along that well.

I'm just surprised the rest could take it for this long.

If you really think that what you plan is right then why didn't you plan it on your own?

Instead of forcing me to.

I would not waste fifty five ringgit for your convenience and your ego.

And you, when can you pay up?

You say you're not doing well but you do have the money to plan holidays.
Gyms, coffee, Mcd.
Whatever it is, please include paying your debts into your budget before spending.

Every penny that comes out comes from my own sweat working.
Please understand that.

Why?

2011-11-21T02:38:00.000+08:00

Have not been here writing anything for awhile.

I just feel so sad.

There is a lot I want to say to you.

A lot I want to know.

What happened?

Did I do something wrong?

I don't know.

I wish I did know.

It really does hurt hearing it.

Maybe you don't know but I really do love you.

Why?

What got you thinking?

Is it because of me?

Or someone else?

Don't.

Don't go saying its you.

Don't say I don't deserve you.

You & I both know its a lie.

We were together long enough to have our ups & downs.

Maybe you don't know but why are hurting me with this?

Are you playing me?

Please, I've never loved anyone this deep.

I forgave you everything that happened.

But why?

I want to know why.

Why all of a sudden?

Why are you doing this.

Please, I just don't want any of this to happen.

:')

2011-08-01T10:42:00.003+08:00

She’s the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen, Every night when I go to sleep, it’s her I dream about, Every time she walks by me it’s like the sun goes down, But like the sun, she turns me to ashes because I don’t belong in her world, She sees right through me, I am undead to her, I Love her with every ounce of my being, I love her so much that it hurts, I Love her and that’s never changing, Because what I feel is something no one has ever felt for her I don’t care whether she loves me or not, She sees right through me but I don’t belong in her world.

I found this and it brought tears to my eyes...

2011-06-29T01:34:00.001+08:00

And since I’ve already given the fancy, eloquent version of this speech before, right now I’m just gonna be blunt and honest. I love you. One more time just because it feels really nice to say, I love you. I feel like I’ve been bottling this up forever. I love you

Hate is by far the longest pleasure

2011-06-26T16:51:00.000+08:00

Something caught my ears the other day. `In order to live, you have to live for more than hate'. I found it quite interesting. Hatred is never going to be there forever. There will be pain, suffering, lost of trust and most of all, you lose the people around you. Learn to love instead. I hope I found mine. Will it end? I think so. The way things are at this moment. I'll just sit by this corner and cry.. Cry my eyes, spill my heart unto you. I'll remember you until the day I die.

2011-06-05T05:49:00.000+08:00

Do you think it is wrong for each of us to want better things in life for ourselves?

It can be a motivation, a drive to better ourselves in every aspect.

But I am truly sorry for what I have turned out to be.

I need to learn to prioritize at the moment.

I am in a mess.

Though I no longer in denial.

Every left and right I am seeing progress in others but me.

I need a drive, a cause to fight for.

I no longer have to passion for anymore for my love of words.

I can no longer write.

But ever since meeting you, you lighted a fire in me.

Challenging me in every way possible on my playing field.

I miss those sparks that ignites me to better myself.

I guess, I just want you...

Half empty glass is just another half-filled glass.

2011-02-15T17:56:00.000+08:00

Really do not like this feeling I am getting.

Do you ever ask how I ever feel about almost anything?

Please, at least ask me first instead of making decisions on your own.

I know I am very wrong at the moment, but I am very upset.

Its the first time I want to spend a day with you after a very long time.

Although I know its just study but I hate being sidelined.

Sorry but I think I am distances myself from any hurt.

Do you know each time you said those words to me, they hurt me deep inside?

I love you very much.

I truly do, but I guess security comes first.

Chris Brown - Say Goodbye

2011-02-07T03:04:00.000+08:00

Past and favorite quotes and sayings by Me..

2010-12-24T23:13:00.003+08:00

Lenard : Men do things for women without expecting sex all the time.
Sheldon : That would be men who had sex

If you are going to love women, you have to expect the occasional flaming wipe out. It is in the fine print you agreed to when you sign up.

~Francis~

My my, if your ass is wider than the bus tire or you are going to take up two seats, please kindly purchase two tickets when you get up the bus. Thank you.

Envy, you're always the one that makes me realize I'm sad. But money, you're the one that never fails to make me miserable..

You can't run away from your past. You'll end up running around in circles until you fall right back into the same hole. Only this time it is deeper. As darkness chew on your very soul. Leaving you nothing but an empty shell.

There are no choices but a straight line. The illusion comes only afterward when you ask yourselves "Why me?" or "What if?". When you look back, do you see branches of a pruned bonsai tree or a forked lightning? If you had done differently, it wouldn't be you but someone else looking back asking a different set of questions...

There is no such thing as "You scratch my back, I scratch yours". Because there is always someone who wants more. Or, nobody wants to start.

Don't do what you can't undo, until you've considered what you can't do once you've done it.

If all roads leads to death, why bother rushing down one? Take your time and enjoy the scenery. Don't tell me there is no time for hesitation often comes with choices :)

If you don't stop being such a stuck up, you'll end up walking around with something stuck up your ass..

I am the center of gravity, hold a capital situation in Vienna, and as I am foremost in every victory, am allowed by all to be invaluable. Though I am invisible, I am clearly seen in the midst of a river. I could name three who are in love with me and have three associates in vice. It is vain that you seek me for I have long been in heaven yet even now lie embalmed in the grave. What am I?

I do think that goodness comes in our own willingness to sacrifice. Everything comes with a penance because everything has negativity in it. What makes it different is the positivity we look at and perform it.

The power in a relationship lies in the hands of the person that cares less. But power isn't happiness. Happiness comes from caring more about people rather then less. Yes, you can get hurt but I'll quote from a saying I saw on a bumper sticker, "Heaven is only yours when you dare to care."

One of the prime differences between men and women is that the ladies have a wholly unrealistic idea of what it means for a guy to act his age. Right? :)

If you're truly over her or him, you'll eventually realize something. They did not cheated on you but cheated with you. I'll quote what Jeffrey Donovan said "You don't marry someone when you're in love with someone else." They're not in love with you anymore to begin with, so how is it cheating on you? Correct me if I'm wrong.

Oh, and one more thing. Before blaming them, ask yourself who pushed them away. Yes, they were looking for a reason but blame yourself for giving them the reason. Don't look back with anger but cherish the thought that you had a memory together. Life's just too short.

Sometimes we just need to learn to lose in order to win. Because win or lose, it is just a game. It's what we learned from the game that counts. To know who watches our six when we watch their six.

To live in the world without becoming
aware of the meaning of the world is
like wandering about in a great library
without touching the books.

~The Secret Teachings
of All Ages~

I think most guys need to read the back of the girl on the label that says, "Caution, If you do break her, she can be the coldest mean living thing."

Our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we touched. As we leave nothing but our legacy behind. The joy, the happiness, the laughter, the tears will fade as we fall to ashes but the memory never will.

Time is just another matter of the state of mind.

‎"Hard eyes will not see what they need to see. Closed eyes will see nothing. Only with soft eyes which you see through." ~Tarda'Ro, Ang Tii Monk~

"Software is like sex: it's better when it's free." (Linus Torvalds)

Why do we fall? So we learn to pick ourselves up and never say never. I am the master of my body. My wish is mine to command. I shall move with grace and victory on my palm. Nothing shall stand on my path as I leave this shell. Not even ME.

You can piss on my face, just don't tell me its raining..

For everything you gain, you lose something else. Do not regret it.

Most powerful is he who controls his own power

" No sane person would dare touch a meal that comes from a kitchen of a woman scorned,"

To conquer fear, you become fear itself. You must wear the mask of another man's fear. And man fear most is what they cannot see. To achieve this, you must embrace your worst fear. Become one with the darkness.

There is nothing to fear but fear itself. I am here to help you understand what is fear. Let me show you what you can achieve without fear.

There should be a time when a man outgrows his children and that time would be a devastating period for him because losing one's child is like losing a part of yourself...

There are times to be brave and times to walk away from a fight because you know you have to. This is one of it.

The best confidence builder is experience. That is the vital part you can't instil in your Spaarti clones better than those trained by a Mando.

Cry after cries, tear and tears falls at a pace my eyes cannot keep up. Each stolen kiss are lost in time over my lips that I stole all these years. Your shadow no longer follow me like it used to. Each day, I long to see it but I shall see it no longer as my heart crumbles without the support of your pillars. I hate the person who I am.

Bring it on..!! I am not afraid of you. You've got nothing I fear for my fear leads to hatred, hatred leads to anger and anger gives me pain. Pain is my fuel, pain is my strength. Learn from mistakes.

I am haunted by the kiss you should never have given me. My heart is beating, hoping that kiss would not be a scar. You are in my very soul, tormenting me. What can I do? I would do anything for you.

Each day, I mourn for you. And it seems I never move on. It hurts me now to see that each one of you has got over it because I'm jealous of you all. I'm jealous that you all have someone to take you to the step of remembering their lost ones but I am just the only one left alone...

At least the dead dies once. Nobody dies as often as the living left behind, who kept reliving the moment of death and speculate on it which virtually has no end to their dying once they let everything else out.

I was ready to give up when I saw your face. The face that brought hope to my heart, dreams to my head. It worked like kerosene and fire. It shot an explosion down my soul. Suddenly, I felt like there is something worth living for. Never in my life had I wanted to live this badly.. And I will continue fighting for this life I have, I'll stay strong. It is the only thing I can do to repay their kindness.

‎"Never back down, Never give up, Never stop fighting. Keep going. We still love you." Those are the words someone whispered to me when I thought all hope was lost. When I thought of giving up. When I thought the reality of life was ugly. Life is beautiful if you look past through this door.

‎"Procrastination is 'the art of keeping up with yesterday and avoiding today.' " - Wayne Dyer

‎"Beings believe what u tell them. They never check, they never ask. Say u can save them, and they never ask-from what? Say anything that require no analysis. Never specify. They look the other way when reality is right infront of them. It's a trick and the key is distraction. Getting them to watch ur other hand. Only single-minded beings don't share the illusion, and keep watching you closely." Emperor Palpatine

Cheating is a word you can't describe, tell, or ask. You can only do, show and feel. And when you do, it never does matter no more. Because you CHEATED.

Endings are baseless. You can bend it, you can twist it, you can slow it. But you can't stop it. You'll reach there eventually.

They say ignorance is bliss. True. When we start looking at things,we realize something is wrong,we tend to fix it. Fixing things never seem to have an ending because new problems seem to crop up every time one is fixed. We'll never find time to be happy then. Therefore,the secret to happiness is just pure stupidity and ignorance. Until it slams you in the face and die. In conclusion,secret to happiness is die early.

Keep me close if you care for me, keep me safe if you want me. For I see them every night. Before they take me away.

You are nothing but the flower of my life... Flowers can be replace but you can never be...

This is virtually everything I have ever posted emo since my 18th birthday.. :)

Dark Black, Blood Red...

2010-12-09T06:56:00.000+08:00

The sky outside my window literally look that way. It brings out the moodiness I seem to get every time I'm staring at this screen. Is this what you call melancholic? Sad without a reason?

~sigh~

Oh, I just want to remind anyone who ever going to bother to read here. I hate invasion of privacy very much. I take it very personally. So, yeah. Never pressure me to conform. Okay?

Closure

2010-12-06T10:50:00.000+08:00

All I want to do, is close that door behind me and move on.

I don't care what you did, neither do I want to know what I did.

All that is needed to know, is to put all those behind.

Because I do know that it isn't just one person that was hurt.

They say it heals over time.

But I say it also breeds hatred too.

I have my life, so do you.
All I did was extend my hand and thats all its going to be.

Retaliation is what I'm seeking.

Because I sincerely believe that There Is Peace.

It is a duty within myself.

My duty.

A flowing river of tears

2010-12-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

I have no idea why but tears seems to just come out inside of me.
I'm crying my insides out at an unknown sadness.

I feel lost in melancholy,

drowning in a sea of tears cried by my own heart.

Not knowing which way lies my destination.

After fruitless attempts of translations only have I realize I lost more than I could bear to.

Oh, how I wished my misery would just end here.

Lying in a pool of death.

So Future Daryl,

Please remember these words well.

Pride isn't power. However, it can be your leverage or choke hold.

But never your ace.

Your ace is a myth.

Because no one has seen it.

Why?

Because true champions never has to ever reveal his ace.

2010-10-31T09:45:00.002+08:00

Why does everybody seem like they can never find their way through life without hurting each other?

I mean, you think you are doing the right thing.

The so-called , towards the "Enlightenment" light.

But, all I see is that people are just stepping on each other and stabbing and stealing and poisoning each other to reach that destination.

What is wrong with you people?

Heaven is a destination you achieve by just being kind to your fellow neighbors.

It has nothing to do about having cleaner records or better ones.

It is all this selfishness that is really making me sick.

Furthermore, I really don't get some.
You dare call them friends but couldn't careless if they are in trouble.

Unless you are absolutely sure you could profit from it.

Are those what you really call friends?
Because, I think that most of us just deserve someone better.

What really pisses me off is when you have to wait for others, you could not be even more furious or angry when we are late but when it is your turn to be late, you will expect everyone to wait for you and not be angry.

Sometimes, just because you are happy does not mean others are not.

Even if I'm writing it here, you will know of this.

What else can I do?

I guess, this is a lost cause.

"Now hatred is by far the longest pleasure; Men love in haste, but they detest at leisure."
Lord Byron

2010-10-03T15:26:00.000+08:00

I feel like I'm just a show puppet to you.

It's like everything that happens is my fault and it all comes down to insulting me for who I am.

Why?

You seem to enjoy rubbing it in my face every time I ask.

This is bullshit. I feel like I'm just there for you when you need me only.

And that, is not always.

I know I'm not rich because I have not earned yet and neither it is my money, I have my flaws.

Everyone does.

But my family worked their way up to where we are now.

In the end, every little girl marries their daddies.....

2010-09-29T03:38:00.000+08:00

Have you ever once just look at yourself and say, I hate you? I just can't seem to shake the feeling. I hate myself what more would you think. Damn, I just need to grab a break from this life one way or another. I wish I could stop and stare at the world spin by me. I'm restless from nothing.I don't know why.

Hello

2010-06-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

I've been alone with you
Inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips
A thousand times
I sometimes see you
Pass outside my door
Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted
And my arms are open wide
'cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much
I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello!
I've just got to let you know
'cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you

Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
'cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you

Do you know this song? I am not sure you do know what song this is but it is has every word I want to speak to you. Forever you shall stay inside my heart. I do not want to lose you. Ever...

Untold collections by me

2010-05-01T06:34:00.001+08:00

Have you been in trouble trying to save everyone from the mess everyone is in and

It is actually the mess that they have made without realizing it?

It is just like the people of New York blaming Spiderman from not being capable of saving everyone from

a serial killer which the people has chosen as their Senator or Governor.

It hurts to know that this is what you really think about others.

Each one of you.

It doesn't matter whether it was me or anyone else.

Imagine if it was you.

How would you feel?

But I am not denying it isn't my fault not checking it.

And I promise this to you Daryl.

Mistakes happens once or twice but if it ever does repeat, it is better to hit the wall and stop whining about the world but it is YOU in the mirror, Daryl.

Another thing I would like to address is that,

Sometimes, its not I don't tell you things that I do

But think back about the fuss you will make and get into if you do,

You will get worry about me and you won't be able to sleep affecting your health so think about that.

Don't you remember all those times you were worried about me getting home?

Or the probability of me not reaching home?

There are two types of why guys withhold information from their loved ones,

One is to cover his own ass,

And the other is to cover someone they love.

There are truths about things you learn about guys on tvs and books or magazines.

Guys do not talk much about their feelings.

Come on, if I start sitting and talking about my feelings to you in a manner you talk to your girlfriends,

then it wouldn't be your hand I am holding but other guys. Get what I mean?

It is not that I do not want to talk to you because you don't come first in my heart but,

it is a guy's defense mechanism.
Shutting the truth from reality.

Besides that, I wouldn't have told you about it if I think I can handle it.

And what I expected was you cheering me up.

Well,thats all I want and wanted to say... :)

Cheer up, you're the love of my life and I'll try to make it permanent if I can.

Love you Peaches.

*xxxx*

2010-04-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

I have been completely ignorant lately. I guess you are right , Ben. Nobody is perfect unless they are completely different or completely ignorant. And that would be me now. I guess it is too late to say more words.

I'm done here. Nothing left to say.

2010-04-05T09:20:00.000+08:00

You know what? I am damn pist now. I purposely wake up early in the morning just to see you, but you do not appreciate it at all. Then you want to be pist at me because I am playing game? What about the times you are playing and ignore me? What about those times if you can tell me? In the first place, you're the one ignoring me. What do you expect me to do? Be some stupid idiot waiting for you to talk to me? Whenever you want to talk, I have to listen. Then you scold me. But do you ever listen every single time when I want to talk? Huh? Tell me that. You NEVER let me a chance to talk at all. YOU NEVER want to listen expect the things you want to hear. You say I'm biased towards her. Ask yourself why. You yourself complained about her so many times since I know you. Especially during your micro. Why do you think I choose to ignore that? Because you choose to. Furthermore, even in Macro and Stats. None the assignment she bothers to do much and reap the profits of you. Fine, I understand that. But you can ignore me because you're busy. But when it's a different story when it is me who is busy. You can be angry at me for it. Worst was our marketing. You can hate her for things but you can turn around and smile back at her. Really don't get how can you stand her. And you can ask me why am I hating her and prejudice towards her. Other than that, I really do not want to say anymore. You choose to not listen to me, so I am telling you here.

No Sacrifice, No Victory. No Penance, No Positivity

2010-03-28T04:12:00.000+08:00

I guess it takes more than courage those say those words with meanings behind them. It takes a whole heart with a big smile to cheer and sacrifice one's own heart and put back a smile on someone else's lips. I watched someone unselfishly did that today and it got me wondering. Have I sacrifice something lately? I think it must be a reason why I have not gotten a reason to be actively be human. Maybe it is because I have not gave up anything in my comfort zone. Charity I guess is what I should do. I have been getting very selfish these days. It is the penance I should pay in order to achieve Happiness and Peace. There was once at a bus stop that was quite lonely when an old man came up to me and asked me for some money as he told me he is from Kelantan ( somewhere in north Malaysia where the rural parts that are a little too rigid with islamic laws) and he need to go back because his wife is gravely ill and he does not have enough money to go back. What he ask was that I give him any amount of money and he would be happy because his ticket price was at rm40. BUT, I knew he was lying because I knew his dialect as it is Malaccan slang ( Malacca is towards south of Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia's capital, around 3hours drive) because I have heard it spoken by my grandmother and also her relatives so very often before. Besides, he would not be there if he was heading to the bus station. So, I thought to myself and I realize it actually took guts to ask someone for money or more like begging for it. Futhermore, I knew that this old man must be starving to come up something like this. So, what I did was I took out my wallet and gave him rm20. I told him that this will help lighten the burden for him to beg from others as not many will give as much as I have just did. When I gave him that 20, his face changed and he decided to play me further by asking for another rm15 as he thought I would give more but I only told him that I know he is from Malacca. He quickly got up to leave but I asked him to wait and I gave him my bottle of water to take it with him. It was the last I saw him at the bus stop. Next time I was there, some help came to me. It was actually quite a lonely place without shops and when I took money out for the bus, I saw I only had rm55. rm50 in note and rm5 in a note. So, I was wondering how to get on the bus as they do not provide change. So as I was going up the bus, I saw this lady going up, so I told her its ok for her not to pay her bus fare as I had only a rm5 and I'll pay for her too but she decline me and to my surprise, she took out change for me and told me to use it. I was shocked to find there are still kind-hearted people in this world. I tried offering my rm5 in return for her change but she declined it and said it was ok because it was nothing. Eventhough it is just rm1, but the curtesy she had to offer me without expecting anything in return was just wonderful and I respect that. So, I do think that goodness comes in our own willingness to sacrifice as everything comes with a penance because everything has negativity in it. What makes it different is the positivity we look at and perform it.

2010-03-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

I am getting a little curious right now. You guys love to joke. Only when the joke is about dissing others. You are gladly or happily laughing at someone else. When you make a joke against me, I laughed along. Like I said, wait till you hear mine. It will blow that smirk off. So you got me wondering now, you don't like it when people diss you. Then why bother dissing at anyone in the first place. If you are good enough, throw a diss back at me. I love a good challenge. It will help create a smooth mood and clears the air with laughter with jokes around. But please remember, I like competitions, but I hate making enemies. Be open about competitors. There is no personal feelings to it. It's just stand up comedy. Besides, I think I have the hug the puppy syndrome. It's like you find a puppy and then finds it really cute till you hug it so tightly till you crush it. Sigh, space then. By the way, how do you explain to someone who was hoping you were their hope that you failed them? Sigh. I really do not know. I just want to sit down here and cry. But it is so hard for me to just live this life through and get over it. Can't wait to get over life and wonder what's next? Am I really taking advantage on you since you think after all the things I did with you? I sleep with fear everyday because you have said it more times that I counted. I really just want to be with you forever. But the more I think about it, the more I hate it. I do not like waiting for it to happen and tell myself again, "told you so".

Men are always selfish

2010-02-18T17:44:00.000+08:00

Geesh, sometimes I really want to throw things at people's faces. They never really care who takes the shit end but they all want the gold end. What is wrong with you people? You reap what you sow. If you don't work your part, how am I suppose to do what is necessary to achieve victory. I've repeated countless of times, " Never try to be stubborn, open up and do what you're suppose to do. Do not diffuse the responsibility among ourselves." I am not going to take the responsibility when it all falls. It sucks you know, they reap the benefits off me but you give the name as leader to me. That fuc*ing sucks. You guys are just brainless shitheads, you know that? Gessh, anyway Happy Valentines, my Peaches. Did not give you the gift properly wrapped but, well, enjoy and sorry its not your size.. *muax*

Rebirth

2010-02-08T02:58:00.001+08:00

I've watched the season grows with utmost beauty,

silencing me with awe,

Stunning me with peace as hatred kills the insides of me.

I feel decapitated as I realize the humanity in me is dying.

In the hour of pain,

I forgot how to love.

You have shown me great deal,

Learning from wisdom that does not add up.

It isn't just how we see the world,

But also the way we take it and return it,

What sets us apart from them,

Is the difference itself.

Time in time again,

I forgotten my ways.

Of how I wanted to change the world,

By starting with myself,

You saw every mistakes I've shown as me.

Every hug we took,

Every kiss I've stole from you,

Every moment we're together,

You have lead me in and out through a wonderful journey,

However, it has been a long time since someone lead you,

You have forgotten that experience that hurt.

Don't be quick to judge me,

For I am not just useless,

Just lazy with a talent wasted unless is seek,

Consider me boasting if you think I am useless,

Not you ordinary...

A killing surge

2010-01-17T08:38:00.000+08:00

I literally feel like killing somebody now... Yeah, I really do hate you. I can't hold it inside long.I know that shadow you hide with the brightness you outshine it. Yes, my method of killing you is simple. With a pencil or a pen. So wanna stick in your throat. Right between your Adam's apple and the chin. That way, I want to hear what you have to say through those gurguling sounds and while you choke with your own blood..!!!

Empty

2009-12-24T04:43:00.000+08:00

The one and only... I don't know why I feel this way.. It is like.. Empty,

Just don't get why couple of these years feel so empty.. Like something is missing.. WHAT is missing?

I just don't know,

There is none of the mood left to celebrate.
All I can feel is that I would love to take your hand,dear..
And dance with you..
Moving ever slowly as we enjoy the classics...

Been touched on the shoulder by a soul

2009-12-22T17:43:00.007+08:00

Lately I just got into the mood of old souls.. It's just wonderful to know the certainty of the people knowing their partners well. Nat King Cole, Unforgettable. My way, Frank Sinatra. Gee, ain't it fun to just listen to them and melt through. Those words are chosen of all the words english can provide, and those words are sweet enough to stay on your mind giving it a wonderful thought?? with the picture above to say to you Peaches, "I love you" with 3 roses, black to represent "till death do us apart"...

2009-12-12T03:21:00.000+08:00

I think I'm an addict to pain. I love the way it hurts me deep inside. I kept asking why do I love it but I still can't find that answer. But what I do know is that it gives me the fuel to move on. To keep driving to live my life the way it should be. Maybe I do have my own defense mechanism but I still feel the raw pain that whips through my heart. But I guess I want it that way. Haha... I think you mite believe I live a perfect life. But it isn't... Try be me if you can. I'm sorry if I hide every single thing from you. It's my way of protecting myself I guess. But dear, I'll like to dedicated this song to you... I'd really want to spend my whole life loving you...

Tired&Sick but still in the mood...

2009-12-09T20:08:00.001+08:00

Days floats by just dreamy as much as I love you... Every second passed without you seems to be like an eternity without you. I miss you always like the way I miss seeing you since the first day.. You're more than anything anyone could put in full sentence. I miss you o' sweet butterfly.. I would love munching on you like a little peach on my dessert plate...Why do you enjoy hurting? I don't get it... I hate crying and it can counted in a hand the number of times I did... I'm trying my best to... It is like whatever I do or say is never enough... You're like air to me.. I need you, I want you... I can never have enough of you... I love you, Dear... I... Love... You...

LOST

2009-11-30T02:31:00.000+08:00

Guess that I have been giving people the satisfaction of hurting and pisting me off... Just to see how I crack underpressure. Although I have NEVER shown it at your face but you do know the fact I have been hurting. I never showed the pain but it gives you the satisfaction. I think maybe.... Just maybe I have lost my old self. That little boy that has been so rhetorical enough to turn that shit you just fling at me. Guess that I will find it somehow.. I will find it... Promised my peach butterfly that I will loosen it up and I certainly will... Just watch out guys. If it hurts, you're doing it right... Because you are DAMN right, I will be the one cause that verbal hurt...

Butterflies in my stomach....

2009-11-17T11:32:00.000+08:00

Dear,

Ok, something tomorrow is coming up for you dear. This is what I have planned for you ever since the beginning. Knowing you, you'd love to decline gifts but I do hope you just will accept this. It's not much but it's sincerely from my heart and I. Please don't be mad. I know lately is not enough to keep you in the mood to enjoy or be happy with me. It is all I can do..

2009-11-16T12:48:00.000+08:00

I still so not get why.... They say, treat others the way you would like others to treat you. In that way, others will treat you better. I have been holding all the pain, the hurt you ALL hurl at me. It stung mad and deep, but I still kept quiet. Please do not kill me. I'm keeping it all inside so whatever I did wanted to do or say will not hurt you. By just eating myself up. At least to let you get it on your own. Take the initiative to just look out for me. But it is like I am walking tall alone. Please don't let me fall. You are my only hope to salvation.

2009-11-13T02:21:00.000+08:00

Drop the bullshit literally please. I am tired of picking after the mess you all make. Why can't you just stop and just think about the person who does the pickup? Is it that hard? If you do know who picks up after you, what do you see? How about changing seats?? Maybe from where you see, you could not see the pain we go through. I love the song the song playing there..... especially the chorus...

In my shoes, just to see What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find Look at shit through each other's eyes

If we only know what we put others through, I guess we could live in a better place....

Sorry

2009-11-05T05:54:00.000+08:00

Dear,

I am so sorry I hurt you in ways I never thought I could. I never meant to make you angry. Please don't be. I am sorry if it did. I guess I still need the time to get to know you better. For instance, I do remember you do enjoy drinking ice-blended drinks with double straws. :) which I remember hearing you say it is other girlfriend only know other than the person who showed it to me.

I guess I really need to study hard too. To learn more about you. To care for you better. To make you.... Happy. I do not know how to say it. But I do know that I love you badly. I am just afraid of myself. I know I am worst than most people. Sorry... Although I have to say this, I enjoy kissing you. It brings out the butterflies in my stomach, turning me on and secure at the same time. Loving me with your heart.

I love you Butterfly....

Your Darling.

2009-11-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

Do you know how hard it is to shut up? Like literally not saying the things you just want to get out of your mind. It just would not make things better. I know. My dad told me that. The old man I once met on the way to the library told me. Someone who knows things would not open their mouth until it is the right time and the right place. To control what you have to say and not affect others. Only when you mean it, only mean it. Never reveal things until the right moment. It brings the "wow" factor into your talks. It is the way of a gentlemen. I am sorry to say that I am an exceptionally good strategist in getting what I want. Seriously. Not bragging but.... I just don't want to reveal what I actually did. You might not like what I might say.

It is so hard being the nice guy on the battlefield. You can kill, but can you kill with a clean conscience? I don't mean to say I am nice. I know I am bad too. But, I have tried being the nicest possible to me. It is like everyone tries to take advantage of each other. Is that called friends? Sorry, I don't get it then.

keeping it silently...

2009-10-30T02:20:00.000+08:00

Dear,

I never told you before. The first kiss we took together, I actually felt something. I never thought it would make me feel this wonderful feeling I felt that day. The day in the room. I love that feeling. It continued to grow with every kiss we do. Especially in the toilet. I never expect it to be that way but it was beyond wonderful... I fell asleep in an exam hall thinking about the kiss only. I never expected it to go beyond it but, let me just tell you what I feel ok? It is not only just those bodily actions I do but more about the feelings I feel about you. I love you. And only you. I have no idea what this sentence depth is but I can assure you it is the deepest among the deepest.. I love you, Butterfly...

Your Darling...

The way you make me feel....

2009-10-14T00:08:00.001+08:00

I love the smell of you. The way it makes me feel eventhough i am full till i can taste the very thing i had for lunch. I love the way your eyes look at me with those little twinkle stars. Your nose wrinkles at every thing I do especially what you do not like. It is especially cute when you do those things that can just sound so wrong or mean a whole lot more to me. It is absolutely wonderful everything about you. Is it ok to say I love you? It means a deal to me and also maybe for you. Hopefully it wasn't just summer love. It's already autumn and heading to winter. Drop my leaves of loneliness and bring me the purity of your snow upon my branches. Bring me the cold to accompany me through life. And melt away the sorrow and pain later like the sun melts away the snow. Melt me away with your smile. Kiss me gently as we never kissed before. Show me the very heart of you and I'll never break it. It will be the first promise I'll make and the only promise I'll never break. I wont leave you, Butterfly....

"I LOVE YOU."

A new Beginning..

2009-10-11T16:00:00.000+08:00

Ahhh.. What a bliss... Starting over a new life. A new adventure ahead. Life is meaningful if you really make use of it. It's what you do in life that makes it meaningful. Does it really matter what others think? They call me selfish. I wonder... I had never been really selfish. I let go off the person since it's no point holding back someone. I just wanted someone to share my pain. Is it really that hard? Well, it isn't. All you need is being selfish. By forcing it at someone. Fine. I have already let go. Without being selfish. But then , when I just want someone to share the pain, you call me selfish. In the first place, you guys put the pain unto me. Fine, it's ok. I have stop doing it. Because I also know it hurts. But when I ask you why did you continue to hurt me even though you know it hurts me badly? And you answered me, "Love is SELFISH..." So, it's ok for you to be selfish but not for me? It is right when you become selfish because you find it necessary to be selfish. But when I do, it is wrong? Then tell me what is right and what is wrong because I think I have lost the definition of right and wrong. But it is ok. Do what you like. I am going to ignore all of it and walk on. You can call me wrong, but I still have my head to walk with, to think with and I certainly am not afraid to keep on going on even if it means I'm going to walk alone in this world.

The Skins peels off, a new beginning kickstarts..

2009-10-07T08:31:00.002+08:00

Ta daa..!!!! done.. Changed the theme... Kinda stupid aint it? Well, kinda stupid but it was time to move on. The dead wont come back to life. It is us who needs to get on.. Gee, I'm tired of people blaming me.. I took care of their needs.. I showed them the right path. Without you my masters, who am I to serve? My love is an act of service.. Without a master, I am lost. Without a direction, without a purpose to live. But I would just have to accept my fate. Hence, The Silent Caretaker.

peeling off

2009-10-07T03:22:00.004+08:00

OK, i think it is enough of pondering on the dead. Ain't no fun peeps. Will be changing the theme tomorrow or to so say it, couple of hours later...

The Truth, Finally...

2009-10-07T02:51:00.000+08:00

I do not get beings.
They lie, they cheat, they do all kinds of things.
Especially when they are motivated.
Be it love or, just lust and greed.

Selfish creatures.
but they do it for their very existence.
then how can it be morally wrong when it is morally right to fight for one's self existence.

Is it true then? Is that all to life?

Then I accept this punishment.

There is nothing more to wish for.

crushed

2009-09-12T17:09:00.000+08:00

Spirits held up high by hopes,

aint no fun watching those around going away,

I guess it is time giving up the unlikeable to happen,

I am walking away from my responsibilities,

I AM TIRED,

I think it is time;

Sorry,

It is the hardest word to say it with my heart,

I am sorry I cannot do the things I said I could,

I thought I could,

I think i got it wrong then,

Time is boundless in your book.

Punishments,

Never unthinkable but unimaginable,

I will take them silently,

For I cry when you undeserving receive it,

Take me in return for peace.

Not merely giving up, Just changing the chapter

2009-08-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

Days has turned into weeks;
Weeks has turned into months.

You told me forgotten who I was;
For I was that Knight who uphold you while others pushed you down;
It was I who kept you strong;
I am tired and I am sore with the hurt you hurl at me;
It is time for me to walk on;
For I have my pride;
Although I have not my soul.

Decisions scattered in front of me;
As i lay my options before my eyes;
I am afraid to make the wrong choice;
but I know I will not regret;
Hopefully,it is the right decision.

Bring me down the right path,Thy horses;
For my fate lay within your hooves;
Keep me safe,bring me home;
Argento and Scarto.

Strength and Honor

stay strong

2009-08-08T18:43:00.003+08:00

Stand up straight,
without shame if it's what you think is right,
it matters not what others think of,
for what you perceive is right,
then it is right.

If this is what I have to go through Eternity for what I did,
I accept it then,
live through my role in this world you walk it.
Keep it going for these mortals.

Their life is short,
but at least they lived,
then it is worth living.

denied by love

2009-08-05T02:01:00.003+08:00

I walked these streets ever since it as created,
pass through every corner it leads,
smelt every scent it produced,
tasted the death that lays every corner of the street,
every murder,
every attack,
I hate my job,
but I can't walk away,
after all,
it's my duty.

how I wished i died,
how i wish to be dead,
never once i wished this when i was alive,
but this is worst than death,
for I am death itself,
help me regain the strength to love,
help me to love,
to love you,
I missed you,

Evangeline.

You took away the very most important thing to me,
You made me take her soul in return for my actions,
It is me who did it to you,
Spare her the pain,
Spare her the torture,
Show her your mercy,
As Father Almighty.

It is the greatest sacrifice I was made to,
to be denied by love,
with no mortal who can withstand me,
for I am neither living nor dead.

Am I Forgotten?

2009-08-03T01:19:00.002+08:00

Bounded by my consequences,
I am to walk without directions,
What if I am just walking through a loop?
or am I just a troop
to the lord Almighty,
I seem to be losing my sanity,
with every second i stare into the mirror,
As there seems to be an error,
for I do not see myself.

Am I lost?
or am I dead?
I guess not,
Just death itself.

There is a need for me to rid of that guilty taste,
Since i made it there in the first place,
The only thing most valuable to me is my soul,
Death is a weird thing,
like falling through a gaping hole
and only left is just my ring,
the balance of my old flame.

~Judas~

haunted by memories

2009-08-01T02:11:00.000+08:00

a long lost memory hits me with every flash the lightning strikes.
the pain it caused,

the pain i felt,
help me rid of this past,
I don't want it to repeat itself again; doomed,
I refuse to accept that the very helping hand that saved me from drowning in my own self pity
turn into the hand that kills me.
I am already dead for sure if this is what i feel.
But if this is what you choose,
Then i guess you just have to live with it,
That once, You murdered me,
Dear Lord, if this is the curse i am bounded by,
To walk the living day alone,
Denied by love,
Pushed aside like an unwanted toy,
But working without the appreciation,
You may hate me for my work,
But to be silent about it,
hopefully I deserve it if what i did in my past actions.

Wishful Thinking

Broken pieces

Wanting More

Goals

Captured

Good Old Times

Magical words

A Hug

With time, in time

A gift

Fearful Resentments

Sometimes

Why?

:')

Hate is by far the longest pleasure

Half empty glass is just another half-filled glass.

Chris Brown - Say Goodbye

Past and favorite quotes and sayings by Me..

Lenard : Men do things for women without expecting sex all the time.Sheldon : That would be men who had sex

If you are going to love women, you have to expect the occasional flaming wipe out. It is in the fine print you agreed to when you sign up.~Francis~

My my, if your ass is wider than the bus tire or you are going to take up two seats, please kindly purchase two tickets when you get up the bus. Thank you.

Envy, you're always the one that makes me realize I'm sad. But money, you're the one that never fails to make me miserable..

You can't run away from your past. You'll end up running around in circles until you fall right back into the same hole. Only this time it is deeper. As darkness chew on your very soul. Leaving you nothing but an empty shell.

There is no such thing as "You scratch my back, I scratch yours". Because there is always someone who wants more. Or, nobody wants to start.

Don't do what you can't undo, until you've considered what you can't do once you've done it.

If all roads leads to death, why bother rushing down one? Take your time and enjoy the scenery. Don't tell me there is no time for hesitation often comes with choices :)

If you don't stop being such a stuck up, you'll end up walking around with something stuck up your ass..

I do think that goodness comes in our own willingness to sacrifice. Everything comes with a penance because everything has negativity in it. What makes it different is the positivity we look at and perform it.

The power in a relationship lies in the hands of the person that cares less. But power isn't happiness. Happiness comes from caring more about people rather then less. Yes, you can get hurt but I'll quote from a saying I saw on a bumper sticker, "Heaven is only yours when you dare to care."

One of the prime differences between men and women is that the ladies have a wholly unrealistic idea of what it means for a guy to act his age. Right? :)

Sometimes we just need to learn to lose in order to win. Because win or lose, it is just a game. It's what we learned from the game that counts. To know who watches our six when we watch their six.

To live in the world without becomingaware of the meaning of the world islike wandering about in a great librarywithout touching the books.~The Secret Teachingsof All Ages~

I think most guys need to read the back of the girl on the label that says, "Caution, If you do break her, she can be the coldest mean living thing."

Our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we touched. As we leave nothing but our legacy behind. The joy, the happiness, the laughter, the tears will fade as we fall to ashes but the memory never will.

‎"Hard eyes will not see what they need to see. Closed eyes will see nothing. Only with soft eyes which you see through." ~Tarda'Ro, Ang Tii Monk~

"Software is like sex: it's better when it's free." (Linus Torvalds)

Why do we fall? So we learn to pick ourselves up and never say never. I am the master of my body. My wish is mine to command. I shall move with grace and victory on my palm. Nothing shall stand on my path as I leave this shell. Not even ME.

You can piss on my face, just don't tell me its raining..

For everything you gain, you lose something else. Do not regret it.

Most powerful is he who controls his own power

" No sane person would dare touch a meal that comes from a kitchen of a woman scorned,"

To conquer fear, you become fear itself. You must wear the mask of another man's fear. And man fear most is what they cannot see. To achieve this, you must embrace your worst fear. Become one with the darkness.

There is nothing to fear but fear itself. I am here to help you understand what is fear. Let me show you what you can achieve without fear.

There should be a time when a man outgrows his children and that time would be a devastating period for him because losing one's child is like losing a part of yourself...

There are times to be brave and times to walk away from a fight because you know you have to. This is one of it.

The best confidence builder is experience. That is the vital part you can't instil in your Spaarti clones better than those trained by a Mando.

Bring it on..!! I am not afraid of you. You've got nothing I fear for my fear leads to hatred, hatred leads to anger and anger gives me pain. Pain is my fuel, pain is my strength. Learn from mistakes.

I am haunted by the kiss you should never have given me. My heart is beating, hoping that kiss would not be a scar. You are in my very soul, tormenting me. What can I do? I would do anything for you.

Each day, I mourn for you. And it seems I never move on. It hurts me now to see that each one of you has got over it because I'm jealous of you all. I'm jealous that you all have someone to take you to the step of remembering their lost ones but I am just the only one left alone...

At least the dead dies once. Nobody dies as often as the living left behind, who kept reliving the moment of death and speculate on it which virtually has no end to their dying once they let everything else out.

‎"Never back down, Never give up, Never stop fighting. Keep going. We still love you." Those are the words someone whispered to me when I thought all hope was lost. When I thought of giving up. When I thought the reality of life was ugly. Life is beautiful if you look past through this door.

‎"Procrastination is 'the art of keeping up with yesterday and avoiding today.' " - Wayne Dyer

Cheating is a word you can't describe, tell, or ask. You can only do, show and feel. And when you do, it never does matter no more. Because you CHEATED.

Endings are baseless. You can bend it, you can twist it, you can slow it. But you can't stop it. You'll reach there eventually.

Keep me close if you care for me, keep me safe if you want me. For I see them every night. Before they take me away.

You are nothing but the flower of my life... Flowers can be replace but you can never be...

Dark Black, Blood Red...

Closure

A flowing river of tears

Hello

Untold collections by me

No Sacrifice, No Victory. No Penance, No Positivity

Men are always selfish

Rebirth

A killing surge

Empty

Been touched on the shoulder by a soul

Tired&Sick but still in the mood...

LOST

Butterflies in my stomach....

Sorry

keeping it silently...

The way you make me feel....

A new Beginning..

The Skins peels off, a new beginning kickstarts..

peeling off

The Truth, Finally...

crushed

Not merely giving up, Just changing the chapter

stay strong

Lenard : Men do things for women without expecting sex all the time.
Sheldon : That would be men who had sex

If you are going to love women, you have to expect the occasional flaming wipe out. It is in the fine print you agreed to when you sign up.

~Francis~

To live in the world without becoming
aware of the meaning of the world is
like wandering about in a great library
without touching the books.

~The Secret Teachings
of All Ages~